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Tuesday, April 22, 2008
TUA.
Assalamualaikum all,
Tomorrow I return to good old Melbourne but my enthusiasm for it has deflated a bit. I was told about something today which is too personal to put up on the world wide web. It's nothing scandolous but just some family affairs that the family has decided to let me in on - seeing as I'm a grown up now. I guess I've always been asking for this - to be treated like an adult. Tapinya it feels horrible. Mcm a weight of responsibility has been placed on your shoulders and although you want to get rid of it, there's no way to do it. I'm being a bit melodramatic at the moment but it's just one of my moods.
Kenapa ia....when you want to be treated like an adult, you're treated like a kid?
...when you want to be carefree, you're placed with responsibilities?
...when you feel you're not ready to face the world, you have to step up your game?
...when you feel like you have all the confidence in the world, there's no opportunity to show it?
Sorry I've been so depressed lately. But it is dugaan dunia. After all, there's no challenge that Allah swt will put on me that he knows I can't handle. I think I usually have a pretty positive outlook in this world. Whatever that's thrown at me I try to deal with it as best as I can. And I've been living in this bubble that blocks out all this negative stuff so that I don't break down. Tapi lately, it feels like this bubble is starting to crack from all this pressure.
But I'll get over this insya Allah. *sigh* never mind. esok i go back to melbourne where my worries will dissipate for a while.
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